i got like 4 hours sleep last night and i've been awake since 8 something this morning and up and about since like 10.. argh!

but, just as i was getting ready to go to my guitar lesson yesterday, my dad rang, and asked if it'd be alright for him to come see me at the weekend! so, here he is! i haven't seen him since my birthday in september! it's weird, (and this sounds mean but hey, it's my diary) that time, i wasn't really that excited about seeing him.. but this time, i dunno, it's something different.. and he's my dad, although not quite human (not always a good thing), we have things in common, genes for instance ;P

i think it's that i feel more like i belong when i'm around my family.

when my brothers came a couple of months ago, even tho they're alot older and i was never really a part of anything with them anyway, i did feel almost like a part of something. until we all went out and there was no room in their car for me. i guess that just kinda hit home, i'm not one of them. i'm one of the relatives who lives in the country and they only have to come and see a couple of times a year. i'm the one stuck with the grandparents (of my nephew..). i want to be in their bit of the family.. with my generation. not just the poor sad little half sister that isn't really a sister, just shares the same mum.. but like, the next time round.

anyway, yes, so it's nice to have dad here, if slightly weird, having all 3 parents in the same house at the same time.. and i know i'll be knackered afterwards but at least then i might actually rest.. i need rest! like now.. argh! i was gonna sleep earlyish tonight!

sorry for the feeling sorry for myself bit, blah..

i'm cold...

mornight! (morning, night, whatever..)