We're both generally pretty tired, on top of our M.E I think.. I think I was generally kinda quiet, which isn't good.. and I want to spend longer with him! Damnit.

Soon.

?

hmm.

So, I don't think I've told anyone really, cos it doesn't seem such a big deal anymore, but I been talking to R a lil bit recently, pretty much cos he's in canada and bored. Yes, you read that right. In canada, and bored. Madness! He went at the beginning of september, for a week or two, can't remember, to see this girl he was in love with before me, had a brilliant time, came back, and went back again lol. So he's there now, staying with the girl, not knowing anyone else there, but loving the place, and thinking about moving there! Which I think is great and really sweet! They've always got on brilliantly, even when I was with him. I pretty much hated her lol. Mostly jealousy but that's not the point :P I thought she was a cow to me anyway :P

Anyway, that's not the point, the point of mentioning that in the first place was that I've been talking to him, even seen some recent pics he showed me that he took in canada and other stuff, and although it's weird seeing a pic of someone after a few years, it's just weird in the way that you go 'oh, haha, he's put on weight and got weird hair!', and not 'damn I miss him'.

This is good!

When I was with S, I thought about R and missed him. Now I'm with G, if I think about R, I think- yeah, it was good for the first 6 months. But what I have now is so much better.

I hope. I really hope this works out.

Damnit I wanna be well! and learn to drive! and go see G! lots!