ever had a, thing.. going round your head... that shouldn't be there? and ya can't tell anyone, cos it's pretty obvious what they'll say.. i don't even wanna tell me.. i shouldn't have things like that... ah it'll pass with time, a few more years maybe.. time sucks, doesn't it? distance too. life would be easier if time and distance could be controlled.. i guess distance can, if you put yourself somewhere else, then distance is different.. and time, if you wait, then it gets there eventually.. but it's a pain in the backside. i'm not sure what i'm on about, and i'm pretty sure no one reading this will either.. don't ask me cos i'm not gonna tell you. oohhh that's gonna bug ya now isn't it ;) sorry.. i just need to um, write crap really.. meaningless crap that means something to somebody.. possibly? i'm cold.

but what does one do when there is a thing going round one's head wot is not supposed to be there? i'm also a lil worried, cos i know that if i really wanted to get it out my head then i'd be able to.. and it's still there.. so there must be a part of me that doesn't want it to go.. or maybe i just don't want it to go forever... it could go for now, and come back in a few years... maybe then i'll know what to do with it..

and isn't it odd, when somebody thinks they know you, but really, they don't.. and then someone else knows more about you than you know yourself..

i'm cold. so i'm gonna stop talking.. stop confusing people, and, go.. over there..

sometimes i get so weird i even freak myself out. i laugh myself to sleep, it's my lullaby. sometimes i drive so fast, just to feel the danger. i wanna scream it makes me feel alive.

is it enough to love? is it enough to breathe? somebody rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed. is it enough to die? somebody save my life. i'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

lala..... that should be my anthem.... well and kat's, but that's cos we're pretty much the same person.. worrying.