.. i need something else to think about.. occupy my thoughts..

pah.

i guess i do have stuff to think about.. it all just gets pushed out by him.. HIM. why?! go away!

it's now been 6 days and something like 13 hours.. since he told me it was over.. on the phone.. but that's only cos i made him answer when i rung and tell me.. he just answered, said what he had to say, didn't pause to listen to me, finished what he had to say, and hung up. coward.

it's not fair.

it's the first week over, and i'm beginning to forget all the bad stuff, and miss the good stuff. cuddles mainly.

it's also weird. for the past year, most of it has been taken up by either us being together, or him chasing after me. and now it's neither.. and it's too quiet.. i want something to dooooo.. i could go for a nice long walk every day.. but oh no, sorry, i can't, i'm ill aren't i. pah pah pah.

it's not fair. my family, the ones in my generation, all live where i used to live. but i'm stuck here, with the old people, the poofy little dogs, in a nice big house in the country (ish). yeah it's nice, but after seeing all them lot yesterday and saturday, it was them, bringing the kids up to see their nanny (and future step grandad..... or something.). then they went home, and my generation left me with the grandparents. i'm a kid. i shouldn't be stuck here. i should be out doing stuff, having fun, doing things that i'll remember all my life.